stumbled

I had a moment today where i stumbeled across something some ex friends wrote... Its one of those "oh fuck i really wish i hadn't seen that" type of things.

Just like... I don't know, it hurts. makes me feel ill and cold. I've tried my best to put what happened behind, but to think someone i cared about so much could be so malicious.

Also someone i went to a convention with, saying that my voice is horribly whiney and that that weekend was the most stressful they've had. I know i shouldn't let it bother me, but it just sticks into me like a icy cold thorn.

"She'll never change"

I've only ever tried to be nice, despite my insecurity. But it wasn't worth it anyway, not for those people. I have friends who won't hurt me, and i won't hurt them. its just a bad taste in my mouth that sometimes gives me a tummy ache. I don't really know why I'm typing this, i doubt anyones really reading it, but it helps to type it all out.

As for art, i feel it has become a chore. my stylus feels uncomfortable in my hand and i feel no desire to pick up a pencil. I hope this is a phase that will pass.

Alfredo, you forgot to tie up the lobsters claws :C

This guys name is Goji, He is Japanese, constantly happy and amazing.

awww look at his ripping out some guys throat <3>

hullo again!

YAY UM...STUFF

k i suck at first posts, i thought i'd start using my blog again for artings and sketchings and so on.

now if only i had something fairly decent to share

blargh have some recent doodles

Simo the nightmare on parchment :o

A guy based on the desert tiramisu! wow i'm lame :D

and beast cos hes cute